Je t'aime.

You don't know how much it hurts.

2012-02-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

How does it feels when people dig upon your wound? How does it feels to say you are fine when you are not. How does it feels when your heartache but you don't know what to do. How does it feels at that split second when you know its over but you still feels sad. Oh fuck this.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

2012-02-09T00:15:00.006+08:00

It was JunQuan's 17th birthday on the 8th of February! So, we headed down to PlayNation to have a taste on their board games and stay there for 4 hours. The time spend wasn't too long, but it was indeed tiring having to keep learning new games and start getting confuse in the middle of the game! After which, XueQi, Gladys, Gina and I went over to 313 to look for a prefect cake for JunQuan. We walked around and basically we decline what Breadtalk and Prima Deli offered, and when we were feeling depressed to look for another cake shop, we found Famous Amos birthday cookie! We customized the cookie and those messages are actually thought by me! Isn't it sweet and nice!

After which, we settled dinner at Hot Tomato! It was the clique's favourite eating place and we actually spend two hundred plus in the restaurant! But it was really nice that JQ decided to pay half of the amount! After the meal, we surprised JQ with the birthday cookie, and I think it was a fail plan. But whatever it is, I really love the cookie! Can I have that for my birthday too? :C We then headed to take rebound and we all got separated because of the train automatic door. In the end, we have to all go back to meet at Marina Bay!

When times are bad, just hold on, stay strong. Good times will come.

2012-02-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

Fuck everyone, HAHAAHAHHAA. I am cool! I am Jacelyn. (Trying to be like 'I am Number 4. Lol.)

I miss you, I will miss you, really.

2012-02-08T01:20:00.005+08:00

Alright, here is something that need to be constant reminded to Ben. But I am afraid that we never meet again and he will never need to wear it on his wrist again. Why am I getting emotional again. I hate this.

This time last year everything was different.

2012-02-08T00:56:00.005+08:00

Everyone need to make decisions. I miss those times in Admiralty, where I wear the school uniform that I never need to tuck in, and always trying to fold my skirt and not get catch by the discipline committee. I miss times where I snack in the class while waiting for the extended lessons to come. I miss times where my eating clique ask questions after lessons and we always are the bunch of ladies rushing down to the canteen to buy beehoon with fried chicken that cost $1.20. I miss lessons where I disturb Manfred so that we both stay awake to listen in class. I miss times when XueQi and BengYew turn around and we four start giggling about stuffs. I miss lessons with JunYong where we discuss boy girl relationship under our breath while Mdm Zainah talk about her family. I miss times where I seat with Gina, Manfred, Ben, Mingsen, JunQuan and JunYong at the back of the class and discuss everything under the sun. I miss PE lessons where we all come together to play captain's ball and sweat like a pig. I miss times where I need to bear responsibilities in Netball and SHA. I miss everything about the school. Of course, I regretted not going to JC. I know I like JC life, I know I like to study. But I know I must not regret going into a Poly course. Everyone needs to make decisions. It might be a bad decision, but in the end of the day, you still made the decision. Ohman, I am getting all emotional about this, let it go Jacelyn. You will survive well in Poly too.

We found love in hopeless place.

2012-02-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday JunQuan!

Sparks fly.

2012-02-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

Yes, I like this photo. Even though it looks 'charcoal-ly', but it well depicts the four different houses of Admiralty Secondary School!

The right person.

2012-02-06T00:39:00.012+08:00

A delayed post where I headed to Marina Bay Sands with Ben to take a look at the Titanic, artifact exhibition! I have really been a great fan of Titanic, of course not the ship itself, but the movie. So when I found out about this exhibition, I have been dying to find someone who will be willing to go with me. And here, I found that person who didn't mind spending his money on this exhibition especially when he is a foreigner and to go with me, the crazygirl!

I love every details of the exhibition, and even thought the English was a bit too overwhelming for me, I was still able to walk out the exhibition hall, knowing that I have learn something! So basically, visitors will be given a boarding pass as they begin their journey through the door of the exhibition. And the name on the boarding passes are of course real passengers that have went up to Titanic. And nearing the end of the exhibition, the floodgate of emotions will open when visitors view 2,200 names on the passenger list. You will then have to match the name on your boarding pass with the name of the actual passenger on the Memorial Wall to discover if 'you' have survived or perished. And so, the name on my boarding pass is Miss Jean from

first class, aged 16, and she survived! HAHAHAHA! Poor Ben had a passenger call Mr Johan who perished. :C

(Why you so tall Ben, so hard to find gf next time.)

I really like the 'zero-degree special wall' that we could touched for as long as possible to feel how the passengers who didn't make it to the lifeboats felt. And I will like to say, its freaking cold! My heartache for those that died in the cold water. And, we actually touched each other faces after touching the 'ice berg', which come to think of it, its quite disgusting! Imagine having your face to be touch by so many people's hand. :/ Not forgetting the place where you glaze at the 'stars', where you will have a feeling that you are on Titanic and the cold wind is blowing on your face!

After the exhibition, we had to head back quickly, because poor Ben stay in Malaysia and he said that he is a good boy. And here, I will like to say, I will miss the times where we spend time alone together, because he is so girly like me. Ohwell, :D

Photos credit @ http://vague-impr-ession.tumblr.com/. I must say this, because he will scold me.

Im a nightstar.

2012-02-05T23:50:00.005+08:00

So, this few days, this few weeks, I have been with XueQi, and of course, JunQuan and Kaibing! Basically, we are the #joblesskids, and every conversation of ours is about looking for jobs. Its nice that we all come together to look for jobs, while the rest are already working and the others adapting to their new phase of life. We have went through all kinds of interview, and I am proud to say, we basically decline all the jobs! And of course, we have send in all kinds of resume through online, and I am sad to say, none of them replied us. #Whattheshit, can they like give us a chance a not. Tsk.

Oh, lets just move on!

2012-02-03T14:08:00.001+08:00

@Mingsennn, I miss you too ley! Kekekeke.

photo credit to @Mingsennn

Bold.

2012-02-03T13:35:00.001+08:00

I have decided to move on. I love my friends, you guys are the best.

I miss you, I really do.

2012-01-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

Can you please fall in love with me?

2012-01-23T01:45:00.003+08:00

I ask 'http://vague-impr-ession.tumblr.com/', where are the rest of the photos? And he told me they were gone. So here, the one and only photo out of those many photos we took in mingsen dad's car! So, I went to JJC with the bunch of people, and yes, I put JJC into one of my 15 choices. I might not get there because I put it at the 5th choice, but I didn't regret walking around the school.

原来爱情这么伤

2012-01-23T01:35:00.003+08:00

I really cried after reading this. Goodbye, my love. :'C

分手需要練習

2012-01-23T01:11:00.004+08:00

Why must you do this to me, seriously, its time you really understand, and stop treating me this way. A lost connection between me and you for how many seconds, minutes, hours, days. And suddenly, you just came back. And now, I really dk what to do. Please don't do this to me.

Its time you stop and understand.

2012-01-16T21:01:00.001+08:00

Awwwww, i look so student-ish. Like a good girl only. HAHAHAA.

Hoping for the best.

2012-01-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

Met up with Weishi, Debbie, Gladys, XueQi, Gina, JunQuan, KaiBing and Yeechuan on the 6th of January for SP and NP open house. It was truly beneficial for me to head down there, because it made me realise what courses I want to get it. Diploma in Business Innovation and Design shall be one of my choice if I want to get into polytechnic!

I hate it when you treat me like trash.

2012-01-07T00:11:00.005+08:00

I went out with sweet to do up Gladys's birthday board. Long time no see, its good to see each other again. As mention in the previous post, the following day was Christmas eve, and I went out with sweet again! Yay!

Our love is like the snow flakes, easily blown away.

2012-01-05T02:54:00.003+08:00

So, I finally got my fringe cut, and although I like it in the photos below, but in reality, I hate it. Because it keeps going to the side, which wasn't the initial look I wanted. ): I feel like going back, and cut it again, omg. HAHAAHA. But anyway, I hope this fringe in the picture is nice.

If you can, please hold me tight alright?

2012-01-03T02:50:00.003+08:00

Yes, I grabbed everything from brother wong's blog, muahahahahahaa.

So, I went out with brother wong to repair his DSLR at canon. It was an unplanned journey down to vivocity then to cityhall, and I guess I have to thanks Ben for tellling brother wong that I was free. HAHAHAA. Anyway, a long walk with brother, and as I said, I treasure the time we had, because you never where we will be heading to after all. C:

Baby, Im so lonely.

2012-01-03T02:19:00.005+08:00

Celebrated Christmas at Aloha Loyang with my family! Started Christmas eve off by meeting sweet at causeway. After which, we headed to Orchard as she needed to get macarons for her brother. And I swear the macarons from Canele are really awesome. Especially their dark chocolate, simply delicious. Crispy and crunchy biscuits but soft and chewy fillings, that aren't too sweet. Prefect. Then, I headed down to Pasir Ris with Dad, Aunt Mary, Brother and his girlfriend. Had a sumptuous christmas meal and had games before 12am strike. It is indeed awesome to spend quality time with family.

I want you to be by my side all day long.

2012-01-03T01:05:00.008+08:00

YTSA Christmas camp at moe adventure camp. The camp kicked off on 29 december, where we were suppose to meet at 2.15pm at Labrador Mrt station. Since I haven't got my exchange gift ready, Sara, peanut and I decided to go there slightly later. Reached the campsite around 3plus and sport games for the whole day. From Frisbee, Basketball, Floorball, to Captain's ball. After which, dinner was special, where we had to pick a name and cook for the person! And I got Vans! Of course, I headed out with Sara and the rest of the excos for prata at the wee hours of 29th december (or is it 30th? LOL.). Tradition of YTSA isn't it. The next day started off with Sara, Darren and I overslept when we were suppose to head out to Vivocity. Nicholas joined us and of course some of the batch 6 kids. Headed back to the campsite with chicken rice for lunch and went to have bonding games. Double wacko where I partner Nicholas almost every time! Then, Michelle, Siewbee and Inshirah came. Afterwhich, disaster came! First, it was a game where the loser team will be given forfeit with ingredients all over their faces and body. From nutalla, curry sauce, charcoal to flour and egg. And I was given flour and curry. :C Then, we was suppose to play captain's ball using flour that was sticky and watery. And here, I got my deep wound, where it is dented inwards. Making me unable to stand straight, squat and of course do my favourite action.

Tada, this is the gift I got from YTSA christmas camp! Then, dinner on 30th was BBQ, and we had christmas gift exchange! And guess what I got! I got 5 big packs of tidbits, from Lays, Oreo, to chocolate bears, WangWang then to mamee, given by JiaYan. Indeed a gift that will make me fat. Ton through the night with Darren, Sara, Nicholas, Weyhan, Rena, Irwin, Melvin, saying ridiculous stuffs, I guess we were all drunk. Went to bed with Sara first at around 5plus because we had to wake up early the next day. Still, we overslept, and we left the campsite slightly later than expected. Darren, Sara, JiaYing and I had to leave the campsite earlier than the rest, which makes me sad. :C It was indeed a memorable camp for me, and I truly love YTSA. Opps, Sara too! Hehehe.

Sometimes, I think we are not meant to be together.

2012-01-03T00:47:00.003+08:00

Gonna meet Ben tomorrow! I manage to lure him out to go out with me, to collect my passport at lavender tomorrow. Its a long ride, but I guess I won't be bored . Tada.

I found you.

2011-12-29T02:14:00.005+08:00

Accompanied Ben for his job interview at International Plaza. It was a long ride to Tanjong Pagar, a long wait for the person to come in, a long wait for the interview, a long walk at Orchard Road. But all was worthwhile, because you want to spend quality time with your friends before its too late.

Set fire to the rain.

2011-12-29T01:50:00.003+08:00

Kbox session with JQ and Ben was a delighting time for me. Its been long since I step into Kbox and sing my heart out. After which, Alvin and the chipmunks 3! And being the only girl that love taking pictures, I request to take with Alvin, Theodore and Simon! Weeeee!

Because Idk what to do when you leave me.

2011-12-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER NAH! Hope she like the collage I have made, even though, most of it is my face. HAHAA. Really need to thanks her for always being there when I needed someone badly, especially this few weeks, when my mood is like a piece of shit. And, I am really glad that you are having gabriel now, because i want her to be happy.

Your sister always, pohpoh.

Its a new love.

2011-12-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

I have been going to granny place for the past few days to take care of her! Feel so bad that I haven't take any photos with her at all! ): But anyway, work tomorrow, gonna wake up freaking early! All the best! Especially to the first batch of people aka xueqi, gladys, jq and jy! :D

Always love 你不知道的事. <:

The only reason is, he no longer love you anymore.

2011-12-11T02:32:00.006+08:00

Why so 隆重? Because its you, boy.

If he doesn't love you anymore, don't dwell on it. Don't ask him why he wants to leave, because when you ask, you have to face the truth. If you know that you can face the cruel truth, then alright. Otherwise, don't ask. Because, you rather remember those wonderful memories you had with him and become friends after that, than remembering him as a bastard and become enemies forever. If he starts looking for reasons to stop meeting you, like he is tired, he doesn't have the time for you, he is too busy. Just face the fact, the only reason for all his reasons is that he is starting to lose his love for you. Because if he love you enough, love you so much so much, he will spare time for you. Even when he is on the toilet bowl, he will try to talk to you through the phone. Look for someone that will do all these for you. One day, the right person will come, the right person will be willing to do all this for you. Don't worry because when you find the right person, you will be happy forever. Being together is about finding happiness and you won't get happiness by forcing each other to be together. Thank him for giving up on you, because that is the only way to allow your heart to accept someone else who will love you so much more.

Don't give up yet.

2011-12-11T02:22:00.003+08:00

Take care and have fun at Korea alright?

The urge of caring.

2011-12-11T01:19:00.007+08:00

It was mum's birthday on the 10th. Didn't went out to celebrate with her but I brought her a book for her birthday that she had long wanted. Read a few parts of the book and it really touch my heart so much. If I can, I will type out those impressive lines here, but they are really lengthy and hard to type, so all I can say is really read it! Highly recommended to all my girlfriends! Because I love you guys, that's why I want you guys to be happy and love yourself.

Note to myself today: 一定要爱自己.

I miss you like crazy.

2011-12-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

A bottle of liang cha from KangSian. Really nice of him to buy such drink for me when I am sick. Awesome dad I guess. Thanks KangSian!

Rewind. I really hope time can rewind.

2011-12-07T02:03:00.002+08:00

Love this boy! Never fail to make me cry. Be strong, boy!

Kisses.

2011-12-07T01:39:00.001+08:00

Coffee bean with Emilyn that day! Talking about Christmas gathering at Chalet! Hope that it will be a blast! I think Id look like myself in this picture!

Illusions.

2011-12-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPYBIRTHDAYAARONPOH!

It's Brother's birthday, but its so sad that he have to be in Army now. :( I really pity him especially when it is his 21st birthday. But still, we can celebrate his birthday next year with a blast! Hope that he had a great time with his girlfriend. (:

You know I always love you only.

2011-12-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

Standard chartered with a bunch of people, especially those from 2E4'09! It was a truly tiring and awesome day! After all those 'baggaging', went to pool and won the boys which consist of JunYong, Bryan Tan, Eric and Yeechuan! I guess it was pure luck, the 'X' and the coaching of Bryan Tan! Hehehehe.

Never believe in forever.

2011-12-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

Feel like crying again. I know I look fat in the photo, but nvm, I miss godmother. Going through too much now and I feel like breaking down. Luckily, O's is over.

I have to quickly start with my resume, XueQi have already finished it. I shall be fast, stop being lazy and stop being distracted by other stuffs.

Will you still love me like before?

2011-12-04T00:21:00.003+08:00

Met up mum at Takashimaya to have dinner. Great chatting with her, but she will never understand what I am going through now. But then, she brought me a Christmas present! Until now, I still can't figure out what she has brought. So, I shall continue to guess and meanwhile buy something for her on her birthday and Christmas too. C:

Lonely lonely night.

2011-12-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

I really can't do this, I really just can't. I will really die. Seriously. So, please, can you please let things rewind, if not, better. Please, I will really die. I swear.

Flick it away.

2011-12-03T03:52:00.003+08:00

It makes me sad, but i will move on strongly if he really wants to leave. I guess that it is the best decision he had come up with. If leaving means the best for us or maybe him, then i will accept it. I want him to be happy, maybe finding a girl unlike me will be the best decision for him. I will move on strongly, I will. I just want him to be happy all the time. Not like this. Whatever the final decision is, I will respect it.

Ben, this video for you ley! Master this, so we can sing together! Yay!

Don't say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it.

2011-12-03T03:44:00.004+08:00

Here is my new display picture on facebook! I am on the televsion, or am I in the televsion? Heeehee.

Why it is when you are heartbroken, and every love song fits perfectly for you.

2011-12-03T02:53:00.006+08:00

Seriously, suddenly lost the mood of blogging. Ohmyfreakingmother. LOL. Tired, but can't bring myself to sleep. :C

Anyway, met up with Ben, JQ, MS and XQ on thursday for Already Famous! The show wasn't exactly that awesome for me, but I guess it was considered as one of the must-watch-show in December. So, I was freezing in the theater with my waist aching like i just lied on a few slices of lemon. (Oh, not funny) And Ben's cardigan was so thin that it didn't help curb my coldness! :C Lucky, nearing the end of the movie, JQ 's sweater was given to Ben and I! Warm and nice, nearly fall asleep in the big sweater, thinking that it is a blanket! C: After which, we walked around the outskirt of amk hub, trying to feel warm again. Then we took photos to end our day! C:

FUNNNNNNNEYY

2011-11-24T16:41:00.001+08:00

When someone ask you why are you so quiet, because I hate everybody. LOL.

You sure?

2011-11-24T16:24:00.000+08:00

They aged.

2011-11-24T15:26:00.006+08:00

Aniq's 16th birthday shock.

Old, but its valuable.

I like how we come from different schools, different backgrounds but we all click so well. Not a single awkwardness. True YTSAs.

HAPPY 16TH!

2011-11-18T02:39:00.003+08:00

Celebrated my 16th birthday with my little babes!! C: It was a surprising birthday by them as it was one day past the actual day. A fun and lovely surprise by them! Even thought i didn't cry, but i was indeed touched. Really touched. Really thought that they have forgotten my birthday!! Just wanna say thankyou babes!!!

I know we can find happiness together.

2011-11-18T02:33:00.001+08:00

Adele's someone like you. Can't stop singing to the song.

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Secrets.

2011-11-18T02:27:00.002+08:00

Looked like a small kid.

Another night waiting for someone to take me home.

2011-11-13T23:09:00.007+08:00

Last paper tomorrow! Chemistry Paper 1, I will ace you. Muahahahaahaha! After which, I will..

Dear friend,

2011-11-12T16:12:00.005+08:00

Happy Belated 16th Birthday man-ny. I hope my little surprise to your house last night was surprising enough! And I really hope that you aren't disappointed that I didn't send you a birthday message on your actual birthday. Do love the cake from bakerzin because I picked them out specially for you, even though it was smashed when it reached your hands. HAHAA. (I know you don't read my blog, but yea. HAAHA.)

From, Your little friend ah poh. C:

Id dare to see.

2011-11-12T16:07:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm, its been long, really long since i last post! While O level is still not over yet! One last paper to go. I know I have not done well, but what to do. What have been done has been done. I just hope that I don't a freaking lousy L1R5. Fuck my life jacelyn. :(

Smile.

2011-08-13T00:21:00.004+08:00

I am really sorry for you. I hope I could have been there for you when those things had happen. But I guess its all over, and I hope you are having a great life now. You might not know that I am referring to you, but I just want to note this down, and tell myself that I love you and am really proud for your courage. Of course, I really hope to be your best friend.

我知道妳留著和他所有合照

2011-08-12T23:50:00.003+08:00

Come! Hear a song before start my ranting. ^^

Seriously, what the f. is wrong with people.

First, Biased piece of shit. Not jealously, I just hate people who don't give a damn to other people's feelings and you think that the way you act don't make others feel interior? Being bias will bring you no where please. -.-

Then, there comes bitches who can't keep their mouth or eyes to themselves. Yank Yank Yank, they will say its their mouth and their eyes, what can you do. Low class.

And, there is people who gets angry for no particular reasons. Oh, they have reasons, but they don't get their facts right. Yanking and ranting their angers on things that aren't true.

After which, people who keeps saying about others without feeling guilty. Has your conscious been eaten up by idkwhat? Its fine with gossiping, but don't gossip about things that will hurt other people's feeling and that is not true. -.-

No forgetting, those who don't think before they speak. So what if its your mouth. Be considerate, your words can hurt if you don't think before you speak. So what if the person tells you his or her problems, you don't have to shoot them back when you are angry with him or her right? Don't you know how hurtful it can be? Even worse, shoot them back at casual chatting. What kind of friend is this. Shitty.

Also, those who always want to poke their nose to everything. You don't have to poke your nose to everything, if the person wants to tell you, he or she will come. -.- Even worse, want to poke their nose to everything, but keep his or her own secrets to him or herself. So lame.

Cannot lose this out, those acting sibei good! Can't stand it. Don't be a two face bastard or bitch please. It does no good to you.

Last but least, people who can't let bygones be bygones. Or put it simply, at least have to hate a few people in their life time. Get a life man.

Shag

2011-08-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

Too shag to shower, too shag to eat, too shag to have the energy to study. Prelims coming in a week! O' level oral this coming Monday!

** PRAY UBER HARD THAT IT WILL BE A BREEZE. Just like the wind that will pass by me when I walk back home by the black track.

還沒好好的感受雪花綻放的氣候
我們一起顫抖會更明白甚麼是溫柔
還沒跟你牽著手走過荒蕪的沙丘
可能從此以後學會珍惜天長和地久

有時候有時候我會相信一切有盡頭
相聚離開都有時候沒有甚麼會永垂不朽
可是我有時候寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透也許你會陪我看細水長流

還沒為你把紅豆熬成纏綿的傷口
然後一起分享會更明白相思的哀愁
還沒好好的感受醒著親吻的溫柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤獨的自由

有時候有時候我會相信一切有盡頭
相聚離開都有時候沒有甚麼會永垂不朽
可是我有時候寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透也許你會陪我看細水長流

YTSA Batch 6 Camp.

2011-08-04T20:49:00.005+08:00

I will never forget this experience. This instructor experience. Together, the instructors had went through so much, all those training on sundays, from strangers to friends, the friendship between all the instructors are like sister and brother's love. The 'little' campers of mine, will always be remembered. The joy, laughter, fun will all the instructors, campers, planning team will be with me forever. And, I will never forget that I am the one for my little campers to rely on. I know that all this friendship will sail us far.

If you ever have a chance to be a instructor, grab the chance, because I promise you that the memories in the camp is so impact-ful that no words can describe. All the troubles, problems, joy you face, help you to become a better person. The bond with those people, especially your very on instructor group is so strong that you can't believe that you only know that for less that a week. <3

At the end of each quarrel.

2011-08-04T20:27:00.004+08:00

School has been exhausting for the past few weeks. Prelims coming, Big Os coming. The stress is here, time is limited yet I am still slacking here. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNN. Anyway, nowadays, many in class are getting pretty tired! So, I am here to give everyone a little tip! To help yourself stay awake, eat a handful of almonds or simply eat fruits such as bananas. Bananas provide energy and nutrients in a form of potassium! Orange juice is another way for boosting energy, as well as providing Vitamin C and helping the body absorb iron. ^^ If not, grab a pack of convenient, portable dried fruit, that is low in fats!

Most importantly! Don't drink coffee! Drinking large amounts of coffee can result in complete exhaustion, according to Natural News. Drinking coffee stimulates the body to produce adrenaline. After the adrenaline high runs out, the body experiences a feeling of exhaustion. Reaching for coffee over and over results in adrenal exhaustion and chronic fatigue.

Final kiss.

2011-05-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

I nearly die of suffocation when he was trying to do some CPR by pressing my heart. -.-

I guess the holiday mood is here after today's Science and Emath paper which resulted my non-stop slacking today. Even though I know that my Emath was a total failure, but whats done has been done. I can only blame to my dk-what-word-to-use. ); But then, gonna move my body hard for the upcoming Chinese O'level paper which is in 10 days. Can you believe that I am 16 already, and I am going to take my o level soon. What man. Hahahaaaa. Gonna hit the pillow soon when I haven't even pack my bag. But who cares, enjoy my life first. ^^ And I shall start mugging tomorrow. *Tomorrow never comes, hais.

What a friend.

2011-05-17T22:04:00.003+08:00

I wasted my time today again. I only woke up at 5pm and started work from 5.30 to 8.30pm today. And here am I, using the computer. Even though I know that I have to score well for the 3 papers this coming Thursday, but I just don't seems to start studying. I guess I am just too depressed over my chemistry paper.

Bye chemistry, I lost hope in you.

Fireworks.

2011-05-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

Call me childish, childlike but I just want to blog about pooh's upcoming movie! I have always like winnie the pooh, from the character to their stories. It always never fail to make me fall in love with 'fairytale' and make me believe that the world is a better place. Pooh is such a lovely friend and I wonder when will I meet someone who will always be there for me, trust me, understand me and make me feel love over again. So please someone, watch with me alright! ^^

In the end, they'll judge me anyway. So whatever.

2011-05-17T00:16:00.005+08:00

Selfish bunch of people, reflect on your stupid acts. Ask yourself if you have ever treated me as a friend. Not even best friend. Ask yourself, I might not be prefect, but then have you all ever think of your own actions. Doesn't it make you cheeks turn red? Every time I think of those times, it just make me feel so sad. Have ever think of me when you all do such selfish acts? Leaving me all behind. If that is the case, then don't be a hypocrite.

2011-05-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

I am tired of always having to reassure you, really.

Fool.

2011-04-14T21:14:00.003+08:00

I want to have great friends, I like having many many great friends. I want to stand by their side when they need someone to talk to. I also want them to stand by my side too, trust me and love me. (:

Once a Netballer, always a Netballer.

2011-04-14T20:17:00.004+08:00

Today, marks the actual day for my O level preparation. 14 April 2011, I have officially step down from Netball ADSS. 4 years of netball life was indeed enriching, moreover having able to be the captain for the school netball team was a even much delightful thing for me. Indeed, it is very heart-wrenching to be noted that we have stepped down. So much thing to say to all my cute little juniors, so much things undone. But still, its time to leave. Anyway, just a little words for my little juniors even though there are so much things I wanna say. 1 year of leadership, 1 year of handling secondary 1,2 3 and 4 kids was a tough job. I apologise for all the black faces I gave, all the shouting i made, and all the neglects i have given to many. But i hope, you all will still love me and remember me, the crazy, funny, fat senior. Hehehee. I declare that I am not a good captain, nor a professional netballer, but I love netball. I hope everyone of the juniors will train hard, play hard and bond together because when it is your turn to step down, you will feel something have left you. Do listen to your upcoming captain and I give you my best of luck, top 3 in the Northzone! I love all my juniors, from my bottom of my heart and so do all the seniors! NETBALL FTW. And I thank you the teachers for giving me a chance to be the captain of the team, from Ms Huda, Mdm Zuraidah. And not forgetting Ms Lin and Ms Clara for believing that I have abilities to the job well. Lastly, Kartini, Gaykwang, Weishi, Rachel, Amirah, Nadirah and Nisa, a bunch of funny, crazy, everlasting friends. Because of you all, you bring the best out of me. And now, I am no longer in Netball but at least there is still speech day tmr to award my service! HAHAHA!

2011-04-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

External Validation Interview. Once in a life time.

Eye Candy.

2011-04-01T20:23:00.004+08:00

This post is definitely not a joke even though it's April Fool. I want to spend my time in admiralty well now, it's just a few more months to prelims, then to O's, then to farewell. I hate the feeling of having to separate. But i guess it mother nature. So, i guess I have to use me time wisely now and start being nice to everyone! They say that i am fierce and violent, and now i shall change to becoming gentle and lovely! ^^ HAHAHAHAAHA!

Can you feel the love tonight?

2011-04-01T19:57:00.003+08:00

I am a slow learner, and I shall always be a slow learner. Even if that is so, I will not let all those porcupines look down on me. So what if me results are not 'appealing', I will work hard. I will.

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.

2011-03-28T22:28:00.011+08:00

Miss Mas to Mdm Mas!

And before I end this post, I will like to present this little song to everyone. This song always comes to me when I am having trouble with my friends. And today, i did have a setback with my friends. But whatever it is, I gonna start from restart and go all the way again. Lets go Jacelyn! And, I guess I have to thank Manfred, Shunhong and Ben. Even though, they did nothing, but they, in a way or another, make me ignite again.

Photos credit to YingJie and Gina.

2011-03-28T22:27:00.001+08:00

Please let go of me. ):

At the very end, we can still only pray.

2011-03-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

HELLO AH! I am finally back. I know it's been really long since I blog, and that's because I am trying to inculcate self-discipline in myself. Hahaa, that was a joke. It just that I didn't really want waste my time on blogging. But then, I still love you, jacelyn-totherescue.blogspot.com.

Term 2 started, and I am panting like a pig. Don't ask me whether pigs pant a not, tyvm. Everyone wants to do their best and is trying very hard already right? Seriously, is not like we don't have brains, and don't know how to think or what, we are seriously putting our best shot already right? It's definitely true that everyone has their own breaking point where we are suppose to rest. So, can you please give us break, let us have a kitkat.

Get back to you.

2011-02-06T02:01:00.001+08:00

I hate this feeling, I hate this feeling of having to be worried if the lizard would come running to me. I just saw a baby lizard running past my wall and I totally freak my bloody soul out. You see, when you pack your room nicely, they come out. When you don't, they stay in their place. Conclusion? Idk, you decide but I just hope that it will get out of my room! Hoho.

Seconds to say hello but forever to say goodbye.

2011-02-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

Class cheering today was awesome! Even though along the way to the success of today's cheering there was a couple of hiccups but everything was worth it. And credits have to be given to everyone who have contributed, without these people we might not be able to get the 2nd placing. 4E1 all the wayyyyyyyyyyyy.

When I think of you.

2011-01-30T01:25:00.001+08:00

With the help of everyone, we managed to cling 1st runner up for class beautifying day. Our first award for the year, all the way 4E1!

Do you know what you need to do?

2011-01-29T14:57:00.005+08:00

The 16th and 17th January kids. (Y)

Cling to your imperfections, thats's what make you unique.

2011-01-28T01:29:00.004+08:00

Finally, I am back. I wasn't in the mood to blog for the pass one month because my Two Zero One Zero post wasn't ready yet and till now, it's still not ready. But, it's okay, I shall do some blogging while I continue with my Two Zero One Zero. Since the school started till now, I haven't got a chance to take a breath, the O's heat is already coming, and I bet when it is April, it will be charging towards us with full speed. But then, I am exhausted already. Damn it. I had reunion dinner today at Famous Crab king. It was a good reunion since I had not seen my butts for nearly a month since 1st of January and I am already very excited for the upcoming CNY this Thursday but still, I have to pass through 4 tests first. It's 2.40am now and I have to sleep soon because I have to get back to school tomorrow for class cheering, I hope it turns out good. I had also just finished packing my room, and like finally I am going to get that curtains down and change to a pretty one tomorrow. After all this packing, I am dead beat, however I am satisfied with my room with a theme, 'POOH'.

Nostalgic.

2010-12-30T19:53:00.011+08:00

I went over to Har Paw Villa yesterday with sweet. My day started badly which in turn cause her day to be bad too, and up till now I still feel very guilty. But nevertheless, we turn it back and it ended all well. HPV is a great place for people who do a lot of bad deeds, you actually do feel the creepiness at first and not forgetting the hotness.

Finish each day and be done with it.

2010-12-29T07:00:00.000+08:00

I set off from the Foong's house on Monday, 20 Dec to get on the bus to Genting. I was rather tired because I had work on the previous day and I didn't get to sleep well at the Foong's house on Sunday night. Eleanor and I went out of the house first because the 3 sisters were really slow. So we went over to Mcdonald's to get breakfast for everyone and we got up to the bus! And here, let the pictures do the talking!

In the morning, waiting for the Foong to get ready.

We reached Genting at about 2pm and we took a photo while waiting for the hotel room.

So, to kill time, we had chicken rice! But in the end, we missed our queue number. -.-

After shopping, we had dinner at Kenny Roger!

Then we went for shopping and later watch Narnian for midnight movie! The movie theater was kind of different from Singapore!

The next morning, we went back to Hainan for breakfast!

After breakfast, we went back to the hotel room for our BIG business but unfortunately, not much treasure. Probably was because of the high pressure. Hah. Then after that, we went to the outdoor theme park!

And, I found Beryl's chocolate house! Goddamn happy can! My favourite chocolate brand! :D

Around 2plus, we went out of the theme park for lunch at ah yi bao yu. The dim sum was good!

Here, was our first ride in the theme park!

Subsequently, we went to take the first roller coaster in Malaysia and then space shot! It was a great leap of my bravery! But it was kind of disappointing when Emilyn did not take any rides.

Then, we took our last ride before going out for lunch, Pirate ship. And we totally make a fool out of ourself. We make different actions and even started screaming even when the ride has not start.

Then dinner.

Next, we went shopping and around 9pm, we went back to the theme park. And we ended the day with our last ride which was actually our first ride. (:

Back in the Foong's hotel room. Eleanor and I went over to their room because we got nothing better to do in our room.

And tada, otw home! I love Singapore, seriously. :DD

No, I am not okay.

2010-12-28T02:01:00.003+08:00

I was at XX's blog reading her post on invisalign, when I realised that mummy is also using that too. I can't believe mummy just smash her 8k into the dentist for her teeth. HAH. But anyway, the main point about this post is about, me having perfect smile. 'You are supposed to see 8-10 teeth when you smile' This was what Xiaxue said, and see my snapshot, I got 8 seen teeth! HAHAAHA.

For myself.

2010-12-28T01:47:00.003+08:00

It was Christmas Eve on Friday and I decided to work as per normal and go over to 660 after my work. This year Christmas wasn't that high as before but still I felt happy when the butts thank me for the headbands.

No, I am not going away but let me go.

2010-12-19T00:13:00.003+08:00

Work was fine I guess, I have a bunch of workmates that are hilarious which actually makes my work more enjoyable. I still remember that there was this auntie working for the other dept asking me if I wanted any plums and a little boy calling me jiejie. So nice of them right, they make my day. :D Whats more? I have got a co-worker who is from the same primary school as me and another from the same secondary school as me. Its a really small world! Anyway, I had classic pedicure after my work last Sunday. I kind of regretted taking the reddish colour because it make me feels very auntie. HAAHAHAA. Then today D called me asking what I would like to have because he is going over to Bangkok. It was very nice of him saying that he will get a ren yao back for me. -.- Dang, so I will be leaving on monday with my cousins. Tc.

I know what I had said. But it was a long time ago, and things had to change.

2010-12-16T23:57:00.006+08:00

I know that the Panadol that I am about to consume which contains paracetamol or acetaminophen can cause potentially fatal liver damage if overdose and, in rare individuals, a normal dose can do the same damaged. Furthermore, paracetamol and caffeine in Panadol can cause side effects like a skin rash, and the caffeine can make you anxious and restless which leads to difficulty in sleeping since, one dose of Panadol Extra (2 caplets) contains 130 mg of caffeine which is equivalent to the content of two cups of instant coffee. But then, I still have to consume it because my flu its cmi. If I don't get well before I go oversea I will be very sad because I want to enjoy myself fully. Work tomorrow, I better sleep early even though I just 'ate 2 cups of instant coffee'.

But, you can't make a rainbow without a little rain.

2010-12-16T23:37:00.003+08:00

I had to get my passport updated since my photo was my childhood picture which don't really resemble me already. Plus, during the June holidays when I went over to Cameron highlands the officer had already ask me to change. So, I had to go over to ICA to get my letter of confirmation done today since I am leaving very soon which means that I am unable to get a new passport since it takes up a week. It was a lot of work and paying $15 for a paper is totally not worth it. But then, since I get to enjoy myself oversea, I guess it is something I would have to bargain with.

I am still, me.

2010-12-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

Work yesterday and my sweet came over to find me for break. I was so over the moon. It's not easy to have someone to come all the way down to look for you, or even worse just have a 1hr dinner with you. True friend. Then, after work I looked around nex for mum's birthday present and rushed over to Bishan to meet Weishi for Netball cups. It was a really good game even though Singapore lost to Whales by 10 points. Then I had work today too, and Jazin came. I was apparently day dreaming at my work place and suddenly he was in front of me. I didn't expect him to come as he had not message me at all and I felt so bad making him wait from 7plus to 9. He gave me two little gifts he brought from Vietnam too! However, the circleline train really pissed me off, it went really really slowly. Fml.

I leave before being left. I decided.

2010-12-09T21:10:00.022+08:00

I went to watch Walking with Dinosaur at the Singapore Indoor stadium today. It was a great show overall even though flashlights were everywhere which hurts our eyes very much even when the person in charge announce twice that no flash photographic was allowed plus the seats we were allocated was kind of bad. But then, million thanks to sweet for accompany me, (Y).

I will never let you fall.

2010-12-08T15:37:00.005+08:00

It's Wednesday and I am at home alone. I bet sayang is having a great time and here I am having backache, sitting in front of the laptop. I had brownie for breakfast today and I am going for a haircut later when daddy comes home to pass me the money. I want to keep my god damn hair long but the split ends with tangled hair are getting on my nerves. I will get a new fringe and a new length later. I actually called chong if she could accompany me but she has school. Then I decided to call up twinnie but she doesn't want to come out. So here I am, feeling very heart broken and decided to go on my own since I am a strong person. HAHAHA. Just then, a few minutes ago, sweet gave me a call, and tada she will be going with me! ^^ Anyway, I just hope that the friendships doesn't vanish just because its the school holidays.

You cry alone and he swears that he love you.

2010-12-08T14:38:00.005+08:00

Yes, yes, yes, I freaking punched in at 1201. I hope the company wouldn't deduce my pay. If not, I will start cursing and swearing.

How did we stay so long together?

2010-12-07T17:21:00.006+08:00

Isn't it cute? The shelter of the car or whatever it is call can be remove and become a sport car leh! I saw the DM-17 at my working place on Sunday when I was walking around the Toys department and was given the key for the Tomica. I was so determine to get that couple car which I fall in love with first sight. But then I was short of money since I needed to get my brother's present. So, yesterday, after I catch Rapunzel at the grand cathay with sayang, I went over to the shopping mall nearby to look for it. In the end, I found two design and I got myself the mickey version. Even thought it cost me $20 for it but I think it was worth the money. HAHAHAHA. I am so going to get that DM17 the next time.

What kind of world do you want?

2010-12-05T11:32:00.003+08:00

As usual, I went to work. Today's crowd was massive, nearly die of suffocation. But it is good because you actually get to sell more of your products and slack more. However, yesterday's performance was still much more better because I manage to sell over 15 items with one Caucasian buying 3 products with me. I was so happy as I was refilling the stocks. Anyhow, today Mrs S.Tan the teacher who uses a speaker, saw me working and she came over to talk to me. I was so sadden when she said that "why you suddenly become so short? You look tall in school!", but I was angry with her not buying my products! HOHOHOH. Anyway, I am not short, it's because my legs are short! So, after work I went around the shopping mall to look for brother's bday present as it was his 20th birthday today. After purchasing, I rushed over to 656. The party was great and the same old routine came; Christmas draw lots! But this year was a little different with everyone penning down what they want for Christmas and then we will have to draw lots and help the person fulfill their wishes! This ensures that all the people, young or old receives a present. A tradition in our family. (:

Please take good care of him and her.

2010-12-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

We are done, k? Promise?

I am still a rockstar.

2010-12-05T01:37:00.004+08:00

I am not prefect but I utterly dislike you.

You just have to make it come true.

2010-12-05T01:07:00.003+08:00

When I am sad, all the bad stuffs in the past just come into my mind one by one. Those memories are never erasable. They are just like the waves, splash onto you and you will start crying. I need to sleep because I got work later in the morning. But the moment i close my eyes, I start wiping, my nose gets block, and i cannot breath properly. Stupid girl. I don't know why I am crying. Dumbbell.

No more empty promises?

2010-12-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

Harry Potter last night with my butts. We spend 50 bucks on food, 40 bucks on tickets and it was all free! (Y) In the end, i only paid for my dress from Hula and Co. with a discount somemore! Hehehe.

Just another love quote you have quoted.

2010-12-03T23:04:00.004+08:00

So I had work today at 12pm. And now, my legs are aching. My lips are peeling. I am having fever. And my voice is very sexy. How am I going to promote my products tomorrow with this voice? Booo. Anyway today's work was much better than last week since I manage to sell more toys, make new friends, and also less troubles. Most importantly, 3 people came to visit me today! (Y)

Don't treat me like a trash.

2010-11-26T21:55:00.003+08:00

FryUrineCookKangaroo-ing pissed. Planned properly can. You think the world revolves around you only is it? Seriously.

No inspiration.

2010-11-26T21:28:00.009+08:00

Wowzers to this photo. HAHAHAHA. So, I had lunch at MacDonald with KangSian today. He finally jio her little daughter here. But then even if he had time for me, he kept staring into blank and he couldn't even finish his nuggets meal even when he didn't upsize it. Lousy. Then, he promised to post today, but till now I don't see a single new post. -.-

Then, went over to meet sweet at Starbucks to have our holiday homework done and I finally finished my geography already. We had fun capturing photos but also had misery over Amath. Booo.

If we show a little love.

2010-11-26T21:19:00.004+08:00

See my twin's eye bags, like mine already. Sleep early k? And it was a great lunch with you yesterday. (Y)

Heard the sound? It's beautiful.

2010-11-25T19:53:00.003+08:00

I am sick of people not speaking what they really want to say and say something else to please others so that people will think that they are gracious or whatever shit. Be yourself.

Where is the love?

2010-11-25T19:51:00.002+08:00

I have only finished Chemistry for my holiday homework. Fml. Please call me out to do homework, and we can catch up on one another too! *Winkwink.

Next time. There is no next time.

2010-11-25T19:45:00.003+08:00

My neck and shoulders are aching. I think I will soon need to wear a spectacles. Fml. I want MacDonald for dinner later, but my slimming plan which I had continued for 4days will be ruined. Brother brought his gf back, and she smiled at me when she was about to enter the toilet. I wondered if she smiled because of graciousness or because of my peacock hair. It will be a really embarrassing moment if it is because of that. Booo.

There is nothing more to say.

2010-11-25T00:14:00.003+08:00

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody say that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Yes, you. I don't need a passerby in my life to ruined my day, my memories, my life. Life is so much more enjoyable, I've decided that I just don't give a fuck. You are just one of the hiccups in my life, causing me to be upset. Mum was right, I am suppose to move on and leave you behind. Because in this reality, there are many more despicable people we have to face. But still, I can't believe it.

After a while, you’ll learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love.

2010-11-24T23:56:00.005+08:00

So, I went back to school for Netball training at 9am today. The team is getting smaller and smaller, in the end only 4 sec 3s came. I was counting myself lucky not having to run extra rounds, if I was late, came in at 9pm sharp. Court game under the hot sun nearly gave me heatstroke, and I was trying to create some happiness in the team. Heh. I think I had became the joker of the day, heh, nevermind. After that, had a great meal which consists of potato soup and bean curd prawns! Love! After which, went over to meet twin, and I really had a great time catching up with her! (:

2010-11-24T11:08:00.001+08:00

Sorry babe. :(